Random thoughts on fitness

Hey Guys,
So, I always thought of myself as the type of person who hates working out. The idea of going to the gym is a little terrifying to me, But that's probably more because I don't want to get all sweaty and gross around people. Growing up, I was exposed to a lot of excessive working out, to the point where it was extremely unhealthy. That paired with constantly being around people with serious eating disorders (on top of my own body issues) has shaped the way I've always looked at fitness. For fear of becoming obsessive, I just stayed away.

I'll get in weird spurts of trying to start a daily workout routine. But, I always end up taking it to an unhealthy place or some weird extreme, like doing a juice cleanse and claiming it was to detox, but really all I wanted to do was drop a size. I was lying to myself about my motives, and when I can to the realization, I was so disappointed. I got depressed and ate half a pizza. It was not my finest hour.

(Yes, It's delicious.. but i think my "hard word" might be wasted continuing to try to accomplish this task.)

So, within the last few weeks I came to this realisation that I don't want my goal to be skinnier anymore. I want to be fit, and tone and be able to chase my dog around outside without feeling winded. But, finding a workout routine that I both enjoyed enough to stick to, and also a way to eat healthier without turning into a crazy person was a daunting task. Until, I was searching around the internet on a quest for something to make for dinner that night, and happened upon Blogilaties. It's a pretty fantastic site created by Cassey Ho who creates workout videos, "clean eating" recipes and also has a line of pretty cute work out clothes. I had actually stumbled across the site before, but within the massive collection of videos, I wasn't sure what to start with.

But that night, the "Workout Calendar" button caught my eye, I clicked it and saw there was an entire beginners calendar. With determination, i set a reminder every day at 9pm to go off using google calender, and included a link.

I'm on day five, and i can honestly say, it's not easy but  i love it so far. Cassey has an infectious bubbly personality that makes you want to finish each video. And the way the series starts to ease you into longer workouts has been really nice. Like I said, I haven't even finished week one yet. But i really think I'm going to do my best to stick to the calendar. I never thought I'd say something like this, but after every workout I feel energized and ready to attack the day.

No Regrets! 

That being said, I probably won't be giving up on pizza any time soon, I may or may not have eaten it for breakfast this morning. But, It's definitely something I'll be eating less of, and looking for healthy recipes to put in it's place. Like these "Cheesy Cauliflower Pizza Bites"

I'm ready for a change. I'm ready to re-build the way I think about fitness and health, physically, and more importantly mentally. So wish me luck <3 I'll give you an update on how I'm feeling at the end of the month.

Going to do my best to be both happy and healthy,
xo Paige